Good Girl Promise

No judgement guys!



So before my 23rd birthday last month, I decided that I would do things differently in regards to relationships and sexual relations. I wanted to do things the right way from now on- meet someone nice, get to know them, go out a few times and wait until I was in an actual committed relationship before having sex with a guy. Up until now, I have almost always done it all backwards and that hasn't served me too well. My thought process though as always been that I need to make sure there is good chemistry and that we get along well in bed before I can properly commit myself- and I do still believe this but I figure there is no harm in trying something new.

Well I know myself well enough to know I can talk a good game about this and since I don't meet many guys it would be no problem not jumping into bed with new guys all the time. I also know that the real challenge would happen when I was faced with the test of being around a guy I would like to "see their peacock"- Katy Perry reference there.

Well I was right. I was fine until presented with a test and boy did I fail miserably. He was a real cool guy but I probably would have normally been able to resist-had I not found out he had his penis pierced. Now that is not something I have ever come across and can't imagine I will ever again (very sad). This was probably a once in a lifetime opportunity and I couldn't pass up the chance to experience it. I thought it over and knew it would more than likely come down to a one night thing- for one, I really don't seem like his type of girl to date, and secondly, I don't think I could subject anyone to dating me anytime in the near future anyways (but that's a whole other post). So I seized the chance and it was totally worth it. Personally, I think it might be a new requirement for me because it was just so.... Interesting. Just that something extra that makes it even better. I wish that any man I end up sleeping with in the future will have this.

So far, I am 0-1 at my good girl promise to myself. But I have to let that one slide for an opportunity like that. From here on out though, I really do want to do things the right way. I know that sex can be so much better if you are emotionally involved with a person but it is also scary to get emotionally involved. It gets to be a bit of a catch 22. But I take it as a sign of maturity and growing up that I do actually want to do it the right way from now on. Wish me luck that I can actually keep it up and keep it in my pants! :-p