I'm just so tired. So tired of everything my life consists of right now. I wish I could make the big changes I want to but unfortunately, that all takes money I don't have. I want to move away. I'm tired of this scenery. I'm tired of the memories I have every where I go.
Sometimes I'm tired of being alone. Sometimes I want to have someone around again that is supposed to be my person to laugh with and hug and sleep next to. But at the same time, that level of comfort with someone only comes once you give part of yourself to them and I don't think I'll ever be able to do that again. I don't even know if I'd want to try again. It's not worth it in the end when it breaks. I won't live through it again if I gave someone my all and it all got thrown in my face again.
It's almost ironic that I gave someone my absolute everything and it left me with reason for no one to ever give me their everything because I could never be worthy of it. I don't even know if that made sense.
Sad sappy story to come back to the blog with. Sometimes it's just so hard to be happy when everything around you is a reminder of the unhappy.
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