Epiphany

Last night I had an epiphany. I've had this thought before but it never really clicked until last night. It was just a fleeting thought with an image in my head of what my life would be right now and it just felt so wrong and not for me- not right now at least.



The epiphany was basically that I can't change what has been done or the choices I have made in the past. Duh moment, right? Now, I have known this, obviously, but it became more of a, 'no matter how much I wallow or hate myself or feel sorry for myself, it won't change anything that has already been done,' thought. I could keep feeling bad for myself and get nowhere and have a completely unhappy life or I can finally just accept my choices and be happy for the lessons I have learned and just do better from now on.

I know there will still be days when I wake up and think of the sad things and there will surely be things I do in the future that I won't be incredibly proud of but it will always just be a lesson learned and motivation for improvement. For now, all I can do is be thankful that I am not in over my head with a situation I wasn't ready for like I was this time last year. One day, I'll be ready for it and it may happen for me then, but for now, it's time to enjoy my youth and my friends. I have something exciting on the horizon but I don't want to jinx it until it is final so hopefully later this week I can share. It's amazing how much better a new perspective can make you feel.