2012

Holy cow, I can't believe it is already the last day of the year. It seriously flew by- I have that same thought every year, but this one takes the cake. I think that is just because of how much has happened this year.



In reality, everything that happened feels like it should have been spread out over a few years which should make it seem like the longest year ever? But somedays, I still feel like it's April and in the midst of crazy. I feel like I need to do a yearly reflection to recap and really commemorate my lessons of the year. And boy oh boy was 2012 full of lessons. I try to keep a sense of humor about it though because thinking of the past in a depressing way just leads to feeling all depressed and that's not how I want to start a new year off.

First off, I managed to get that pesky first marriage/divorce out of the way this year. I have always joked that I would be married multiple times- but in the back of my head I always figured that I would be a one marriage girl because it would truly take a really special person to get me to commit to that. Shit happens though and I got caught up and made silly mistakes. Thankfully, you can pay people to clear up just about any mistake you make ;p Never again though will I make the mistake of so getting caught up and just agreeing because I felt I had no option. Next time anyone ever gets close enough to me to even think about getting a ring on my finger, it'll be after a few good years.Also, I learned the importance of really listening to my gut and paying attention to the red flags people show.

I also have to do a special thanks to a couple friends who really were amazing and honestly probably don't even know the extent to which they helped me out when I really hit my low point. Thank you Shannon and Robert. I really didn't think I'd be here today at all. But I am extremely thankful for you just being someone I was able to just talk to when to I needed it. (Literally just started crying cause I'm now a sap and am happy I have good friends). I also want to mention that I love the friends that I grew closer with this year and the ones I met and have gotten to spend time with this year. You all rule and I'm glad to have you around.

On a happier note, I started a job I love (minus some pesky people) and met some really great people through it. I work with some awesome girls and I will be a little sad when I leave in July.

I finally got my act together a bit more and started school which has been great so far. I love it and I'm doing soooo much better this time around. And I know that is all due to the fact that I actually want to be there and want to learn. I have the right mindset this time and it has truly been making me so happy. I have found more of a purpose for myself and for the first time ever, I am happy within myself and it feels good. I feel like I am also finally making my parents proud too and that's a nice feeling too after always being a little screwy.

Honorable mentions:
I got to ride on a motorcycle for the first time. That was awesome!
I got a super cute new kitty named Sprinkles.
I finally have a favorite bar here in Tucson. Thank you for the fun and cheap drinks Cowpony.
I finally got red couches like I always wanted.
I got a new car that I actually like and is cute. :D
I have become more open to trying new things. Yes I'm still picky but if you're lucky, I will try things now.

This year had a lot of personal battles and the worst kinds of heartbreak I will ever face (I hope nothing worse comes along, fingers crossed!). It was really trying and difficult, but I have learned more about who I am, who I want to be and who I want to surround myself with. I am becoming a better person and a happy one. As hard as this year was for me, I will embrace it for all that I learned and vow to make 2013 my best year yet. Bring it on 2013!